21.2.2012 6.28PM
I’m quite disheartened by those who proclaim Christ; and turn their backs and avoid those who they once ‘appreciated’ and ‘adored’, once they realised that friendship is all that there was to be had. It’s certainly interesting, but truthfully; it is most certainly not surprising.

8.2.2012 3.47PM
My mother is in intensive care in the hospital currently, as her platelets and white blood cell count is down to 300, and a health count should be between 3,000 and 10,000. She has cancer, and the low levels are due to her radiotherapy and chemotherapy. She is currently battling pneumonia on top of that; and due to her levels being low, her immune system is shutting down and has little to no ability to fight her pneumonia, and that is why she is currently in intensive care on monitors, a respirator and unable to eat currently. Please pray for healing, safety, peace and that she would remain clear of any sign or form of infection; as the smallest infection could be fatal to her.. Your prayers would be greatly appreciated. 

7.2.2012 6.20PM
I love and adore the way my Father, my King, and my Lord protects me, and guards my heart; even when I feel I have forgotten to do so myself. I thought I’d find this day difficult if it ever came, but the flood and rush of His peace and His love is wondrous, and truly a blessing. The things He has shown me, revealed to me, and allowed me to understand today are purely immaculate, and a complete revelation. I am blessed to have a Father who reminds me, when I walk ahead of Him, to return to the line, and follow Him patiently, lovingly and remain completely committed to being drenched in Him, soaked in Him, and swallowed up in Him, until such time as He is ready to add to me, and increase my ministry in that wonderful way. Thank you Lord, for showing me your kindness, your faithfulness and your love for me. Even in my foolishness and ignorance, your care, plan and adoration for me prevails.

2.2.2012 11.58PM
Wow, God sure knows how to make a sad night spectacular!

2.2.2012 7.45PM
I’ve had enough tonight; I’m sensitive and emotional, and I am choosing to be wise by walking away. 

2.2.2012 7.35PM
I was having company for dinner tonight; and so I cooked a beautiful roast, my company was supposed to arrive at 7.30pm. At 7.25 they called to let me know they wouldn’t be coming because they were feeling unwell. I now have a large piece of roast pork, some roast vegetables, and a white chocolate and raspberry pudding for dessert… and no one to eat it with. That’s sad.

2.2.2012 12.40PM
I’m currently sitting on my couch at home, working on some photography, and applying for houses in Philip Island; as I begin my new ministry position very soon, and have yet to find somewhere to live. People are often asking me “Oh aren’t you stressed you won’t find anything, or find somewhere..?” - Well truthfully, no. I’m not. And why you ask? Because I serve an amazing God, who provides my every need, in His timing. Not my every want, in my timing. Today is a beautiful day; God is on my side, always.

21.1.2012 11.20AM
It’s been one day short of a month since I have updated here, and I’m very sorry for what has seemed to have been a very lengthy process of me not being available, around or responding to your questions/requests. I spent a week away with family over Christmas, then returned home for one night, washed my clothes, and headed off for three weeks of camp with CYC. (Whom I have now been given the position of Childrens Ministry Coordinator with).. Absolute answer to prayer and fulfilment of words spoken over my life; God promised me a position of this very nature, and here I am now, walking in it. I am blessed beyond measure or comparison. Regardless, my job doesn’t start for another few weeks… So I am currently working on being wise with my savings, and being sensible with my money, whilst still remaining in the right light with giving to God and His ministries and people. The point of this post was really to remind you all that God is faithful, trustworthy and loving at all times. And I am home. 

22.12.2011 5.32PM
When you throw your stones, in an attempt to break me down. When you hurl your careless words, in an attempt to crush my spirit. When you spread your lies and gossip, in an attempt to cause me to react wrongly towards you. When you walk away from me, in an attempt to get me to follow you back into sin and deception. When you throw temptation in my face, in an attempt to bring me to deny God. I WILL PRAISE ON! “We are afflicted in every way, but NOT crushed; perplexed, but NOT driven to despair; persecuted, but NOT forsaken; struck down, but NOT destroyed;  ALWAYS carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. For we who LIVE are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh.” (2 Corinthians 4: 8-11)

22.12.2011 5.15PM
Those who don’t know Christ, and don’t hold a relationship with Him and have Him dwelling in their hearts; struggle when they see the Christian faith and the way we follow God - because truly, they are convicted to see the joy that we live with; and the strength that we go through trials with - thanks to our wonderful King. They hate to hear the truth of His word; His calling; His desires… As humans strayed from Him, they hate to hear that they may not be able to personally indulge in anything and everything they so desire. Drugs, sex, idolatry, swearing, lying, cheating… And it is for this reason, that our world is in the state that it is in. We need a divine, intense and direct revelation throughout this earth. We need more Christians who will stand up for Him, His word and His truth and sacrifice. Who will take up their cross, and walk on - despite persecution and slander, despite it being heavy and difficult, despite it being uncomfortable at times. We need more Christians who will respond to the hard topics asked; instead of shying away due to the possibility of conflict… We need to be more like Christ, and less like us. So I proclaim now; GO ON WORLD - do your best, because your best will never compare or come close to even the worst aspects of what it’s like to live for Christ. Count me in God… Count, me, in! I will not back down, nor bury my faith; for I am called to be salt and light.

21.12.2011 10.09PM
HAVE TO SHARE, the beautiful girl I shared my testimony with has agreed to come to our christmas service at church 100% for sure. WHAAAAAAT, God seriously, the way You work is beautiful, and the way You minister behind the scenes is so encouraging. Thank you for being the silent gardener to the seeds we plant for You. 

21.12.2011 9.37PM
Wow, such a great afternoon, I’m totally just, well, yeah, so happy. I have just returned home from a giant long adventure that went all afternoon and evening with a really close friend of mine; Chad. He picked me up from home, then took me for a late lunch, where we had some amazing pancakes, instead of eating real lunch.. Then we decided to head for a walk along the beach and down to the point, where we skipped rocks (which I am surprisingly good at!?) then we walked back to the car and he popped a blindfold over my eyes and told me I wasn’t allowed to peek, so I didn’t (even though I wanted to) haha. He drove for what felt like forever, but was only 35 minutes. Finally arrived at the cutest little cottage overlooking the ocean, which turned out to be a cute little tea and coffee house, where we sat and chatted for hours and hours, until they kicked us out. Haha, I really love good conversation with amazing, special people in your life. I thought I’d find today hard; but I haven’t, at all. God is so good with giving me peace and comfort and allowing me to really enjoy myself with someone very important to me. Chad is truly amazing, His wife will be abundantly blessed to spend her life with him.. I’m going to pray for him and his future wife tonight. But hey—- God…. is…. so…. flipping…. great. 

21.12.2011 1.00PM
I’m convicted today; so often I pray that Christ would give me peace, that He would give me strength etc, I am forever praying and asking Him to provide that within me. But today, He is encouraging me and pressing me to no longer ask for those things but to ask for more of Him within me; that I may simply desire it and know that it is given to me, rather than dwelling and needing to ask and hoping He will provide for me. It’s almost as though He has said to me “Uh, Hello!? You could just let me take over?”… And truthfully, with 98% of my situations I do allow Him to do that, completely engulf me and allow Him to direct me according to where He desires I would go.. But occasionally there are situations that arise where I dwell and ask for help for too long; rather than just going “You know what? HERE GOD!… I don’t need this on my shoulders”. Thank You Lord, for your beautiful and constructive conviction within my heart. Today I gave Him an unnerving concern/situation that I had been sitting on in my heart for roughly a week, and the peace that has flooded my soul is divine. Forgive me Lord for waiting and not giving it to You sooner, but thank You for teaching me through my mistake. You are far too good to me. 

21.12.2011 12.45AM
Last night I completely forgot to mention this, which is terrible, because it was crazy exciting and so encouraging and just really completely and utterly God-Driven. We had our small group christmas break up, and one of the beautiful young adults that attends our group mentioned she would like prayer for her dad, as he had left their family seven years ago, believing he was ‘homosexual’ and he started storing up objects, and spending all his money on holidays, constantly buying things and filling his home with things he doesn’t need… in the desire to self-satisfy. She asked for prayer, and as we were all praying together. I received the clearest vision of her father standing at the edge of a clear and calm blue lake, but the sky was extremely cloudy; and he was surrounded by giant piles of every day things, couches, televisions, games, clothes, expensive paintings, and as the vision went on he began throwing things into the lake, and as those things went in, they disappeared and the clouds began to clear and the verse given to me with that vision was Matthew 6:19-20 where it speaks of not storing your riches on earth, but storing them in Heaven, and God totally encouraged me to speak out that He was going to create a storehouse with this girls father (peter) in Heaven; and that she would see him do a complete 180 and begin to store His riches in Christ. AMAZING, RIGHT? God is so good, and knows what we need just in the right moment. So honoured to be used by Him.

21.12.2011 12.33AM
I just reached 900 followers. What an exciting yet humbling experience it has been, for me to share my passion for Christ with you, through the gift He has given to me of writing. He never ceases to blow my mind; thank you all for the encouragement of simply clicking ‘follow’.

21.12.2011 12.16AM
Today/last night was so amazing, I had an opportunity to share my testimony with a young girl whom I gave a lift to from the bus stop to her home. She was excited by what God had done in my life, and I firmly believe God really ministered to her through that. I am just, so excited for all that He is doing, and thankful for opportunities like today, to share His works in my life, with others. She and I traded numbers, and will be meeting for coffee sometime this week; I plan to invite her to come along to our christmas service on christmas eve. God is so good! I’m also really praying and stirring in my spirit for our ‘outpost’ christmas banquet on Friday night, for the homeless people in my area. We are expecting at least 100 people; but know and trust in God that there will be many, many more. We are blessed by Him in order to be a blessing to others. Thanks for being so spectacular, God. :)

19.12.2011 8.07PM
Well today has been full of really interesting surprises, as well as some really interesting revelations. I’ve been shown so much today, particularly tonight; and have realised that God really does never stop speaking to me; I just have a habit of tuning out or hearing what I desire to, when I desire to. 99% of the time, I am in tune - but it’s that 1% that He is wanting to ween out of my life. I’m so excited for this week; for God to continue to reveal His excellence, peace and strength in my life. His ability to assure me I am, as always, best and refreshed, when resting in Him. He is so wonderful, His Holy Spirit is so compassionate and comforting - tending to my hearts concerns at all times. Thank You Lord for sending Your Holy Spirit to be with me at all times.

16.12.2011 4.13PM
When I am weak, it is then that He is able to be strong. When I let go, He reveals it all.

16.12.2011 2.25PM
This day has continued to better itself moment after moment. God is really ministering to me through this season in my life, and refreshing my patience and willingness to just wait in Him. I am so ridiculously blessed in the time and care that He takes and shows for me. His beautiful presence- surrounding my at all times. Not to mention coffee with wonderful people this morning, and plenty of clarification on situations. Gods perspective is so perfect.

16.12.2011 1.14AM
What a beautiful day. Today (technically yesterday now).. I arrived home to find an adorable little kitten on my doorstep. This is by no means a stretch of the imagination; it happened to me. This little kitten, no more than 10-12 weeks old, found His way to my home. I have searched all over my street for his possible owners, but no one know anything about a ‘missing kitten’.. I have now given him a name, ‘Pepito’. He likes fish, playing with feathers, and listening to hillsong. He also likes it when I wear my hoody backwards, and he can sleep in the hood under my chin. He is beautiful, and he is mine. I love him. 

15.12.2011 4.28AM
I’m so excited, yet nervous at the same time. Not nervous in a bad way though; I have to be honest.. There’s such a wonderful, beautiful and exciting potential between us. God is all over it, but we must remain wise in how we go about this situation, and we must remain sensitive to His spirit and His words. But my heart is filled to overflowing, and it is known by Him regardless. Lord, You are good. 

14.12.2011 1.00PM
You have the ability to transform someones day; and in that ability- remains a choice of whether your influence will be positive, or negative. We have the gift of life and death at the tip of our tongue, and we need to choose to speak life, speak positivity, speak love and speak beautifully. We need to allow God to breathe into our spirit, breathe into our veins, and burn out the dross- until only love remains. Will we be that which is good in someones story- or the block that caused them to stumble and fall?

14.12.2011 12.40PM
“Come the way you are, broken and ashamed. Come put out your hands, and let Me break the chains. the beauty of the cross, is that only sin was lost - I rescued you, I rescued you.”

14.12.2011 12.05PM
I have the most awful and intense ear ache at the moment; and I’m somewhat concerned that my hearing may be affected as a result of it. Right now I can’t really hear anything from my left ear- I do plan to go to the doctors at some point, but if you could all please pray for me also. That would be wonderful.

13.12.2011 4.25PM
dear self; PROVERBS 31.

13.12.2011 4.20PM
I keep my blog clear of little posts about my life by containing them here. I feel like it’s safer, wiser and less cluttering. I don’t want to weigh down the greatness of Gods love in me by clouding it with my self-involved and self-concerned posts. I understand the uneasiness that people would so often share with me about. I rarely feel uneasy, and so when it comes about- sometimes I let the feeling hang around, waft around and stick around longer than I should. I know this uneasy and nerved feeling isn’t coming from God- and so why do I allow it to dwell? - I’m so silly, I’m also only human… But above all, yes, so silly. I can’t help but occasionally slip, fall and feel like I’m doing less than making Him proud- Accepting Christ is easy, following Him is the difficult journey that many take for granted… But I know His desires for my ways- which makes the feeling of not being all He wants me to be- so much more difficult to bare. But I need to remember…. Everything. In. His. Timing.

13.12.2011 4.11PM
God help me please to guard my heart, lead me through this period in my life. Help me to close my eyes, and rely on Your leading and direction for me at all times. I cannot make these choices for my life without Your direct guidance, and Your intricate protection - cradle my heart Lord, like only You know how.

13.12.2011 1.50AM
I never really thought so much could happen in such a short amount of time, but the last two weeks have been absolutely mind-altering, challenging, encouraging, exciting and above all- lovely. I’m still experiencing trial, and difficulty amidst the beautiful things going on around me and that I am coming face to face with recently (or not so face-to-face…) ha. It’s just, God’s been doing some spectacular work in my life in regards to patience and pressing me to continue on in seeking after His heart for me, His desire for my steps, my emotions, my thoughts- Proverbs 31, completely and utterly. I’ve met some really wonderful people over the last 10 days. And I’m really excited to see what God’s going to do within those situations. On a more simple and elegant note; I changed my blog layout, drew a little deer emblem for my header, and basically gave my little blog-home a new design. It’s fresh and crisp. I like to keep things simple. - I may have spent hours battling with the HTML coding trying to tweek it to looking just the way I desired it, but I won, and I did it, so hooray for new layouts. Can I just remind you quickly… OUR GOD IS SO GOOD. I’m thinking about heading to some vintage stores tomorrow, I have such a desire to purchase some new cute vintage dresses. Wish me well?

1.12.2011 9.25PM
I forgot to say thank you to you all for following and supporting my blog and my love for Christ. I’ve reached 550 followers. Which means you have multiplied from 250 to 550 in 4 weeks. I’m excited by that- you might not be, but I am… So thanks for being such cool cats!

1.12.2011 9.20PM
I’ve realised today that I have really let you all down on the ‘daily posts’ section of my blog. I’m very sorry to those of you who actually click to see updates- and haven’t seen anything for just under a month. I will do my best to post more regularly and more often. Now that my apology is done and over with- I thought I’d let you know I am home alone tonight, it’s cold and so I have ignited our little gas log fire, and am stretched out on the floor in front of it. Crazily enough- today is the first day of summer, it was beautiful- though not as warm as I’d have expected. Regardless, praise God for summertime! I’m eating really ripe and delicious green grapes and drinking water, waiting for some music to finish downloading on itunes. Can I just remind you… Boy, oh Boy, our God is SO GOOD. 

10.11.2011 11.29PM
Tomorrow I will experience my very first ‘11:11am on the 11/11/11’ — exciting. On a lighter note, off to Apollo Bay tomorrow to meet up with a friend I haven’t seen in years. Simply cannot wait! Also… God is so, flipping, great!

7.11.2011 2.14PM
I just realised I now have 250 followers… I am so amazed, thankful and humbled. wow.

7.11.2011 1.48PM
Free slurpee day at 7/11 today. Cannot wait to trundle over and enjoy an amazing icy treat, all for free. But I plan on spending an extra $2.90 and purchasing a ‘Thank you water’ - All funds raised go to overseas drinking water provision and wells etc. A mindful and amazing cause. I’d like to apologise for my lack of posts recently- I’m having quite a lot of trouble with a new internet that I’ve recently signed up to. It only seems to work at strange, weird and wonderful hours of the wee-mornings. I find myself blogging at 12.30 and 1.30AM. The sun is out today, after work I will be heading for a surf (followed by the slurpee I mentioned).. still too cold to head out without a wetsuit, but hopefully soon enough I’ll be free!

5.11.2011 1.38AM
Speaking of cats… I saw the most unbelievably adorable kitten yesterday, it’s face was all squishy and fat and oh I could have put her in my pocket and taken her home, given her a name and loved her forever!

5.11.2011 1.36AM
I went a touch music-crazy on itunes just now, and spent $76 on new Christian folk/acoustic songs/albums. Which happens to be $61 more than I had signed on and intended to spend. One can never have enough positive music though. I’m a sleepy cat, I need to be awake in 5.5 hours.. One might suggest I get some rest, and one would be right in suggesting so.. I will be ever so tired tomorrow.

2.11.2011 2.14AM
Here I am, laying wide awake again- I have sleepy eyes, yet I cannot sleep? I’m fairly positive I know why. Tomorrow is a fairly big day for me. Oh boy.. On a brighter note - I found out tonight that what we call ‘Malteasers’ in Australia, are in fact called ‘Whoppers’ in America. Such a strange name for a chocolate covered malt ball. Weirdo’s. I need some lavender tea, I need my mind to rest.

2.11.2011 12.23AM
I am so amazed at the intensity and closeness that I am feeling from God lately, He never ceases to completely blow my mind!

2.11.2011 12.18AM
I don’t know how many people check this post, or how often- but if you happen to be reading this, please pray for the aching pain that is spreading through my right shoulder, arm, wrist and fingers. It is somewhat unbearable right now, and all prayers would be greatly appreciated. I don’t ask often, but the pain is quite uncomfortable.

31.10.2011 12.34PM
I have $40.00 credit on my iTunes account and have no clue of what I would like to purchase. I would like to buy and download some delicious music though. This makes me think of how much I really dislike the way people burn and steal music and movies. How unfortunate for those who spent years and months and hours and minutes creating that beautiful masterpiece. We wouldn’t appreciate it being done to something we created- and if we appreciate it, why not take the time and spend the money. Oh bah-humbug!

31.10.2011 12.26PM
Lunch time. Carrot, celery and capsicum sticks. Some cheese, crackers and dip and a bottle of ice-tea. Oh boy. I have realised something interesting today.. Ever since I began this blog, my internet has been playing up and being really temperamental. Which is quite frustrating to say the least. Oh well, I hope I’m making Satan mad… Because then I’m clearly glorifying God. boom-shaka-laka! The sun is out, I have tied my hair up in a high bun, taken off my jacket and rolled up the pants. Hello spring time, I welcome you.

31.10.2011 12.23AM
I’m often inactive over the weekend when it comes to the internet; life is hectic and very busy/full on most weekends. I’m all booked out and have little time to rest or pop online. Regardless, it’s just past midnight, and I’m exhausted after a long weekend— tonight is the first down/flat night I’ve had in a little while.. God is with me, of course.. I suppose I’m really desiring a friend to just ‘conveniently’ wake up and message me. God often surprises me in ways like that- but it seems not tonight, despite how desperately I’m wishing just one person would ask me how I’m really doing…  I’m drinking tea, I guess that will have to do for now. Time to scout God’s word and source myself some encouragement in that manner. 

28.10.2011 1.30AM
What I thought was rustling in the bushes outside, turned out to be the soft falling pitter-patters of rain drops on the flowers that are slowly blooming in the garden. I have come to realise that the sound of rain is actually relaxing. Not so much the sound itself, but the consistency of the noise.. There’s something soothing about gently drowning out silence and making way for a new sweet sound.. I had thai for dinner tonight, it was delicious. I used chop sticks, because I decided it would make it taste better. The lady who served me gave me a little china cat trinket, and smiled the whole way through my meal. I really love people who smile often. Yeah.. I do.

27.10.2011 2.23PM
Wow, what a beautiful day… You know, sunshine just makes everything so much more precious and enjoyable in my eyes. Laying on the soft spring grass, watching the leaves in the trees above me rustle in content with the wind. Regardless of this afternoon’s activities- I am at peace, and so thankful for that.

26.10.2011 12.10PM
I’m making myself cup-a-noodles for lunch and I have come to the realisation that I enjoy drinking the hot flavoured water more than I enjoy eating the noodles themselves. I’m not sure if this is a strange or weird concept, but it’s just so warm and delicious. That being said- it is not out of character for me. I do really enjoy soup. Regardless, it’s a beautiful day today.. I’m warm, I should tie my hair up in a bun. 

26.10.2011 2.58AM
I feel so blessed to have the opportunity to be meeting so many wonderful people after The Fathers heart on tumblr. Mmm, warm fuzzy-tingles I have. 

26.10.2011 2.38AM 
I just held a strong mental debate with myself over my outrageous obsession with quaint tea-cups and my desire to purchase more and grow it until it swallows my entire home. Sensible me is sleeping right now, tea-cup lover is wide awake. 

26.10.2011 2.34AM
I made the decision just now to turn this post into the place where I would visit often, and post little tid-bits of information that I don’t particularly feel the need to create new posts on and about. Little things, stories, life-samples such as this: Last night I was resting on the couch, and a little beetle climbed through my window and made his way over my couch and down onto my arm. He was beautiful, so small and delicate and brown.