Father God, who am I to believe I am strong enough, and that without your provision, I will survive and prosper, that I will overcome? Who am I to believe I can make it without your grace, your mercy, your love? Father I am ignorant, I am weak and I am filled with faults that can be blamed solely on my mistakes. Forgive me for my naivety, for my willingness to forget, ignore and avoid. For my lack of surrendered direction, for the back that I turned to you when I believed in myself, and not in You. Forgive me Father for not acknowledging you as often, as whole heartedly and as passionately as I should. I am a sinner, filled with more filth than the ground itself. Forgive me Father, for choosing when I would and wouldn’t sit on your wheel, for choosing the times that suited me to be shaped, and those that didn’t. Who am I, Father.. Who am I that I would hear You calling out my name, hear You crying for my heart, and still I refused to give you all of me, all the time. Forgive me for being a child that calls with most desperation when in need, rather than when in thanks. Forgive me, Father God… for being as weak and mild as I am, in all my shame- when You, in all Your glory, made a way for me. When You, gave it all- Who am I to withhold what is rightfully Yours. Father, forgive me. Forgive us.